English English...

I decided to write in English from now on.

I read a report in Hurriyet today, about "Why Turks don't learn a foreign language?" The reporter says that teachers don't let the students communicate each other in English. They just teach grammar, so students don't practice and speak.

I think, the reporter is right. When I was a student, our teacher always speak to us in English, but she didn't allow to talk. We used to listen to her and write down. I can remember just numbers, days and colours from those days. On the other hand I studied at a local secondary school. I'm sure this education system is different at private schools and colleges.

But if we don't pass the private school's exams, or our parents don't have enough money to send us to the colleges can't we learn proper English or have a dream of being an English teacher? At last we'll hate English language like me.

I studied vastly different grammar when I was in Turkey, and I felt that I know nothing about speaking English when I came to England. It was really hard for me to understand people and speak to them. As quickly as I could I found a college to learn English again. My friends in the class were from various countries and some of them were able to speak very well, but they couldn't write or read. Other Turkish students and I could write and read pretty well, but I could't understand and speak to anybody. Also I was shy and I didn't want to say something wrongly because I felt so ashamed of myself for making mistakes. I bet the other Turks were the same situaton with me.

It didn't change so much from those days. I still avoid to speak to other people unless I have to do.

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